Friday, September 5, 2014

The urge to expose - the freeballer's dilemma


See-thru freeballing - Perv'd or Fashion Passion?
            

        Having spent the hottest part of the summer in the US mainland,  I wasn't prepared for the excruciatingly torrid temps and scorching sun  when I returned to Japan - and that was after it had 'cooled off'.  Actually, the heat isn't the problem -- it's the humidity that makes it  too muggy to wear underwear during the summers in Tokyo.

          Weather and climate aside, I find that once I've been out the  country, I get the urge to exhibit myself rather unobtrusively- sort of  strut my stuff - so to speak by freeballing in mesh shorts, torn jeans,  very tight and /or translucent board shorts, and even 'jinbei' ( a short  summer casual men's kimono-like mesh garment). I mentioned this before  on this board - but the urge overcomes my good sense sometimes. So until
 the fall rains and cooler weather rolls in, I tend to be about half  naked whenever I'm outside (not at work obviously), and then I  also  spend many lazy late summer-like afternoons being naked outdoors -  discretely sunbathing nude at the local river (a wide recreation area  long both sides of a shallow but wide river in Tokyo). The area is  frequented by cyclists, families and people walking their pets, but it  seems I'm just far enough out of sight to be cause for alarm or simply  believe cannot even imagine what they eyes would or should otherwise  report: there a naked white guy over there.

           It's probably worth exploring the WHY of why I do this. But I  think it has a great deal to do with three things:  1) it's an ultimate  statement of freedom. Being an American who is living in a socialistic  nation where individual wishes, rights and personal ambitions are so  repressed by the strict edicts of Japanese social fabric means that I  absolutely am constantly starved for personal liberty. 2)  I am an  extreme racial minority in this country. I don't just stick out like a  sore thumb; I AM the SORE THUMB, penis, ass, and every other part of the  body.  (Sorry too much to explain in a blog post), and finally 3) I am  gay living as supressed and hidden life, pretending to be a completely  straight, and upstanding non-citizen but one who has loved being close  to nature - especially being naked in the sunshine, wind and sea - since  he was a child.

           You can see a photo of the location where I go nude or semi-nude  sunbathing on my
Typepad blog (below). The mesh shorts not ones I would  wear on the street, (well, at least not in Japan - although I have done  so at night in Hawaii), but my other 'see-thru' freeballing shorts are  also pretty revealing).  By the way, those are people in the background  to the left of  and below my elbow.

           Someday I'm going to ask someone to take a photo of me from over  there so that I can get a sense of what people could actually see.  Of  course, I have other photos that show nudity, but that's just TOO  ludicrous to be exposing myself to you all on the Freeballing.com site  (Tongue-in-cheeks - (mouth, not my sunkissed butt,  Ha Ha!)


           I guess I have to be honest to stay that my cock swells a bit when I  think (or know) that another guy is watching or even just glancing at  my crotch. My 'former' target for such 'sightings' was a 25-ish blue  collar worker who passed by me many mornings on the way to his work.  Perhaps because of the economy, he no longer does. So I've taken a  different tact and am now wearing an assortment of the above clothes to  see which one draws more attention (i.e. straying eyes that shoot  straight to my crotch), and also to see who seems to actually notice or  who can't help himself from 'repeatedly' noticing. So far there aren't  many onlookers; however, one guy seems to have realized that he's
likely  going to be tempted to look and he obviously thinks that's  embarrassing. So if I see him coming now on his bicycle, I find that he  manages to look the other way or to feign fidgeting with something in  his basket (no, the one on the front of his bicycle) Smirk!

           Pervert, am I. Probably, yes. But it's fun trying to mildly shock  the Japanese men. I actually pay little attention to whether the women  give me a glance or not.

           So.. why is it that men are so 'visually' stimulated? I'm sure there  is an evolutionary and also psycho-sexual explanation. But what the  hell, it's fun being 'mean' (and Kermit used to say - Oh, that was  'green'). Well, it was probably Cookie Monster who thought that, anyway.

Sayonara,

Kelly

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